The Color Yellow

In a world gone grey

I kept hope

You were the color

outlining the clouds

Allowing a moment

A window to open

Into infinity

I saw when I looked.

You burst into life

like the color yellow

after the winter

after the storms pass.

You were color

in my world.

But blood spills red

over this grey world.

my deep blue heart

is heavy as I wait

for something

that will never

arrive.

Colors fading

Bright becomes dull

Day become night.

Take a long Look

while there's still Light.

Dissapointing

Que the music

drown the sound

of my missing tears

not falling down

All I knew was love

and I'm scared now

I am aware that

love is missing

I am a child

full of wonderment

broken with insignificance

I am nothing

I can do nothing

but sacrifice

all my potential

my future

to try in vein

to make you happy

Take me for you

Use me up

For I do not exist

outside of you.

Cool Wind

This hurt I feel

is buried deep

partially avoided

but now I weep.

A stranger I am

to myself I lie

trying to save

I can't and I cry.

Shaking inside

chilled to the bone

surrounded by nothing

I sit here alone.

A little girl sleeps

when she wakes

she remembers

her heart breaks.

Hold on to Me

Somewhere I am floating

down a river going fast

nothing to remind me

of myself or of my past

The sky is dark

the stars shine bright

I am illuminated

by an inner light

I have no thoughts

No where to go

No one to follow

I simply flow

Where I end up

is where I'll begin

eternal being

I journey within.

Upon Awakening

Boldly looking forward

to places unforeseen

Not afraid of searching for

somewhere I've never been.

I will remember as it happens

the sights will strike a cord

In the presence of creation

Of course I'll know my Lord.

The beginning of this world

Was dreamt and so was I

Every detail accounted for

even the colour in my eye-

So why should I worry

What could disturb my peace-

When I know for certain

my Being will never ever cease.

This is why I look forward

instead of looking back

There's nothing more I need

there is nothing that I lack...

I am perfect in this moment

my heart open to the light

I am the morning waking up

Shaking off this night.

soothe my emotion

Star light filters through the nights sky

I stand below the moon looking up

In the ether we exist together

Completely connected but apart

Alone in this moment with sound

The vibrations enter neutral

I let them wash over me, through me

I am cleansed by being in the moment

lost when I fall asleep in the past

afraid when I grasp at the future...

I am here...bathing in the light

of the moon, the sun, the stars

I am reflecting the light

I am a temple on earth

for the light from above

I do not need to fumble in the dark

for the light switch is a choice

I turn on from within

My Vocation

Flipping through pages

Skimming through words

Not even speaking

Don't want to be heard,

I've got nowhere to be

No agenda to follow

Being free as the wind

can be a tough pill to swallow

To watch every moment

is no easy task

to sit alone in the mirror

with no hiding, no mask

Seeing yourself clearly

with nowhere to run

accepting the truth

sometimes is not fun!

But I continue to be

as I am, as a child

born free in the world

an animal of the wild

I'll continue to roam

as a gypsy I wander

the world spinning 'round

the mystery of life I ponder.