In my dreams

A blinding light and now I see
so far into the future
where you will be
I go forward not knowing
which roads to take
being guided by the stars
fueled by the wondrous love we shall make,
a kingdom of joy will be ours by right
each and every day
night after night
we glow with the glory
of living and life
Into the darkness
There we find light

Never be afraid of being alone
don't you wonder why
you have no house or home
the very skin surrounding your bones
is the holy temple creation has grown
So be bold like the thunder
give heat like the fires
Loving you loving me
Our story inspires

In my dreams
In my dreams
In my dreams

This is your last post

Where to begin?
how deep shall I cut?
can I capture
your mediocrity in words?
Let me try.

Grey & dull
Lackluster & unambitious,
You have settled for less
which is fine by you.
I left, not soon enough
and now I go for good,
you are a reproduction
You have little range
and no depth.
Like the weeds
that over take the garden
you are not wanted in my space.
I don't see how I ever
confused you
for someone.
You were a broken mirror
and I was seeing myself
contorted in the reflection.
It was not myself with scars
but you, who never understood
All that I am or my beauty.
How long I wasted looking
into a broken mirror.
Never again will I waste
my precious time
searching for myself in another.
You could never have reflected
the light I shine
because your simple eyes
never saw it.
So here is your last entry

Enjoy toiling in the soil
boy.

a little blue

because your voice has not been heard
I forget the sound of a spoken word
I wander and wait for the time to come
I'll walk forever and then I'll run

In the absence of you
I am left without me,
I keep breaking apart
and I no longer see

This is not being lost
nor does it mean found
it is existing in space
without any sound

Chance

Seeing so much
that should remind me of you
if I say it did
it wouldn't be true.

lost & found

that feeling
when the sun
appears
on a cold grey afternoon
adrift on an island
away from your warmth

when the snow falls so softly
you can almost
sense someone smiling
all around you
you are all around yourself

knowing you greet
each and every day
with the hope of peace
in your heart
and love on your face

holding the infinite
in my chest
i am bold
like thunder
i erupt
into spontaneous bliss

that feeling
when you recognize
your suitcase
does not come with a life time guarantee

this is how i know
you belong with me

and i
belong
with you

The moon in my window

Like a long awaited letter-
after many grey days
and dark nights of the soul,
Arriving
with no thought
of delay.
Post marked
and born into space
I became to be delivered,
to an undisclosed address
where ever you are.
The sweetness of love
written out in words.
Softness pours out
of the envelope
like a flower
full of pollen, slowly fill up
on life. Overflowing
from the beauty of being
I surrender,
all that I am
for Love,
all that I am
has surrendered
to you,
Love.

Yes

You-looking down at the ground,
You-who has not tried hard enough to believe-
I am talking to you.
I am not about to leave you,
to let go of your hand,
but the light shining from my eyes,
is not detected in yours.
You only see the reflection
of your own inner self
you see something I am not
Please, do not project
yourself onto me,
Let me be Myself,
and you
You be yourself
and together
than we shall See.

try

You
are
a
creation
of
your
imagination
forget
yourself
then
remember
who
you
really
are

signs

Subtle hints
you speak so clear
but why do I stop thinking
when you are near
Your face shines bright
I stare too long
I watch you dancing
song after song,
I stand on the side
in the shadow
of the room
stoically my eyes
reflecting the full moon
a light
you will never know

always, emily belle

Bubbling
From,
not in to
a spinning
mesh
net
confusion
doubt
fear
noise
isolation
when seen
from sleeping
eyes
the world
is a scary
place.
try looking around
awake with open eyes
harmonious flowing
all knowing
forever
always.

sad

when this unit breaks apart
theres no holding on
you're lost
never found
only within
are we ever whole
fully alive
when you kill
the thoughts
you believed
were you.
Cut the bow stings
connecting your
heart to an object
outside of self
there is no permanence
no grounding
no love
nothing exists outside
of Self.
You are Myself.

Dear 22222: What you lack is ambition

yes

On a cloud I am floating
through this space we call time
it matters not
which way you choose

we are awake,
or we are asleep

we possess the infinite
we are the infinite
all of creation
within each cell

bubbles in space

deep in the ocean
where the waters cold
no light penetrates
existence is revealed.
on top of the darkness
there is the pulsing
of energy flowing
breaking into the atmosphere
one by one reaching for the stars
they can't reach quite so high
and like a black hole
collapses infinitely within
an elegant turbulence
is in constant motion
a ceaseless current of instantaneous knowing
accompanied by the sounds of endless joy
never began, never stopping.

Sweet sounds

Rolling waves
undulating in my field of energy
infinity is my playground
life my playmate for a while.

Not stopping half way
going the distance
to understand Self
at all times, alive

Living not to repeat
presence is not a second chance
its the moment
then its gone

forever

then what,
who will you be
where will you exist
when you no longer exist?

burn the boundaries
drown the inhibitions
suffocate the fears
no time for later
when Here we Are.

shape less

Standing still
in the rain
is when I feel whole.
Are those tears
or rain drops
pooling in my eyes?
Alone in this world
of statues.
I walk about
listening for
hearts beating,
I hear nothing
but sounds
resonating off
the stones.
The echos
trick me into believing
I am not alone.
Here I am,
hopeful
even when
it hurts.

Hello, I'd like to get to know you

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

I'm not your slave, Never will be.

If I was a ship I would be the largest to sail on any ocean,
if I was a building I would surely scrape the sky.
The heat of my fire would burn a hole through the earth
then I would reach into space, gathering all the pretty stars
adorning myself with radiance, glowing so bright
I'll no longer comprehend darkness.

So free I flow, nourishing life with an essence of being.
Merely breathing to breath, not to succeed
like the tall trees, I have already conquered
my concept of winning is growth, not accumulation
my need to love is inheritance, not desire
Seeing beyond and within matter- matters most to me

I lift the thin veil of seductive confusion
away from my face
and in an instant
I dissolve into nothingness
I become the wind blowing
Only passing through, never lingering long.

just in time

On time world
Sun rises on time
buses bus on time
moods swing on time
frost melts on time
Sleep on time
at work on time
Leaves fall on time
stars shine on time
everything always on time
everyone on time
forever on time
like a slave
we die on time
building up illusions
in time to start again
tomorrow.
on time today
for tomorrow.
Can we be sure of
tomorrow arriving
on time?

the on time sun rise
may be the last
on time morning
you'll ever see.
Let us break every clock
set ourselves free
stop scurrying like mice
searching for crumbs.
Love without your watch.
Live without a timer.
Freedom is not
a byproduct of fear.

discarded

Fast forward the parts with you involved
because I think you are uninspiring.
Cover those stupid searching eyes
I know you've never understood
anything you've ever seen.
Your two dimensional brain
cannot process color
and you live in greyness
on the border of black & white.
I will edit you out &
leave you on the cutting ground
you are never recognized
you lay in frozen frames
in pieces all over the ground
scattered on my floor
I sweep you up
and throw you away.

reflectance

You need someone to aim at -
Aim at me
You need someone to lie to -
Lie to me
You need someone to make yourself feel better -
Belittle me
You need to hear yourself speak-
drown me with your words

I am indifferent to you and others like you.
Because the world is full of people like you.
You are a carbon copy of a clone.
Nothing about you is original,
not even your first thought
upon waking in the morning.

So please, step on me,
walk all over me,
like I am your door mat
in the mud soaked spring

Use me until I am used up
fulfill your wants
then throw me away
like the piles of trash
you took out this morning

I am indifferent
I am mute
Quick sands quickly swallow whole
I am meaningless
in a meaningless world
& You
Mean
nothing
to Me.

office with the view

The beauty surrounding me evokes tears
the soul within me evokes tears
which I will cry silently
for all those who will never dream
for all those who have no hope.
I burn for you Earth
for your children
for your mountains
your oceans.
I walk as a shell of a woman
moving through life
oddly aware of the nature of time
the illusion, the confusion
Lead me, I will follow-
Just lend me your hand
I need you to hold my hand.

hang upon my alter

the air is thick with energy
that we make our way through
a silent force inside
urges and pulls
manuvers the oceans
unceasingly renewing
instantaneously connecting
every aspect of self
exact conception of new thoughts
while remembering
while breathing
while doing
stumbling towards something
attached to the wind
freely flowing through time
hollow eyes become
an alter to hold
the potential of the universe
seeing the vibrations
communing in infinite space
in this moment

where are you?

18-over done

Your words are full of your emptiness
I see your fear across your face.
Loud & brass you go on
& all I want is for you
to understand silence.
bring your ship into the harbour
before you sink so close to shore
I will never sail in your shallow waters
your meager winds would never support
my mighty sails. Watch me careen
towards the horizon, while you wait motionless.
you stand in your own way
but you won't ever get in mine.

fire work express

Everywhere
All around me! Taller than I can possibly reach
and lower to the ground than I can lay
There you are filling every inch of my awareness
with the hope of finding you
in every page I flip through
and every thought I have!
I'll walk down every aisle
never go to sleep
I'll wait forever for this,
for the conception of my purpose
for the spark to explode
and with it I will burn passionately
always prepared to leave
never ready to go
while I walk around the dead
I smell decay I see the river
has stopped running clear
and they look me in the eye
all I see is a blank stare.
I keep to this lonely path
Always believing in a better way.

spiced tea

I am lost in the depth
of the silky blackness
extending from your
exotic midnight eyes
dazzling light emanating
holding me hostage
where I stand

Star light in your eye

And now
we are still
seconds between us
only our eyes
are present.
Finally
we have found each other.
I knew all along
the power of Love.

Pale Yellow

Sounds are mellow
time goes slowly
smoothness of being melts
the frozen pump
you let your heart become.
Flowing with life force
We are free.

Light blue

Your Beauty
Intoxicates my life
Blinding me
Infected with the desire
to be near you.
Consumed with the fragrance
that is your essence.

Shrug

And this place wonders where you are
and why you are, the way you are
I welcome you if you need welcoming,
consider this, your welcome.
Time isn't in our interest

But time has proven tactful
in its delivery of love
Latitude & Longitude
reek havoc on my heart
I am divided
long before I was hole

In silence I captivate a selective audiance
one who acts
on my desires
also my

forgetfulness.

Here, you are there
Now, you are later.

Sorry to exist somewhere else,
but, its better here.

Now-

Like that I transport
into Now
I leave you behind
cause you only bring me sorrow
so leave me fly
you ain't ever gonna see me fly

I still reel in naked truth
because you took me
from my air
into your air
and I went
knowing I wouldn't be breathin

Now Im breathin
and you can't ever keep up
to the rhythms that im flowin in
cause you could never keep up

then

I become unrecognizable
and you thought you knew me.
I've told you from the beginning,
you'll never know me.
I don't have time for you.
To be honest
Being here
Is the best

You couldn't make this better
But you, the you I don't know.
You can make it everything.
Just like I make this your favorite coffee,
in your favorite place.
Tell you everthing you want.

Still not enough for me
Still rather be alone
in a laboratory
experimenting
with
explosives.

You were too gentle.
Too soft
to ever know tough.

Still me.
Still the only you I've ever known.

Bizarre kind of feeling

Staleness in the air I breath
is all a state of mind
I wander day and night
Listening to the sounds of the wind,
waiting to hear your voice carried with it
Hoping you send me something
over the distance
of oceans
continents
time & space.

Send me a feeling from the wild
something to trigger my animal instincts...
Under the full moon
I will howl out
my longing song
the heat from my
voice will melt thick ice caps
and penetrate the core of the Earth
I will fill the busy universe
with my Love.

Do you feel me yet?

for no one in particular, yet.

You there-
what do you see here?
I stand, open mouthed
swallowing the light from the stars
until I shine brilliantly.
As the light house guides
I will show you the way
home safely.
Wait now-
What sounds do you hear?
Is it the oceans rolling waves
cascading rhythmically onto shore ?
Refining every human habit
you always wanted rid of?
Release it here-
Sing your farewells.
Is this it you ask me,
Two blue eyes searching
two blue eyes-
Lost and found together
in the infinite ocean
of four unknown seas.
Let me cast my anchor
in this very ocean of love,
I will sail this way forever
in your blue eyes.
The undulations of your breath
the sun rise is your smile.

Think before you speak

The sky, infinite space, cannot be limited or hurt by anything; we are a droplet of that Infinity, a little nest cradling the omnipresent Spirit.

Anger unleashed
shows not my faults
but the parched soils
of your heart and mind.
Seek a well for water
but do not taint my own
in search of your fulfillment
you will remain thirsty
until you decide to drink
I have no interests
in petty material quarrels.
Speak to me in truth
and I will listen.

The Door Opens

All the imaginings I've ever imagined
line the walls of this great hall
I've entered not by chance,
I see the past displayed as nutrients
building the soils up
for my creations
and destruction's.
I see far back into the lives
that have given me this moment,
this very breath
I breathe,
and now I see
where I am going
has been there all along,
in the questions I continued to ask
the logic of it all
makes me laugh like a child.
I go on and on
and on and on,
like the farmer
who tends to his soils
to watch the seeds grow
is the greatest reward of all.
The being and the doing
is the gift of here and now.
Thank you highest highs
and thank you lowest lows,
I accept everything,
I imagined Love,
and its more than
what I could have hoped for.
And its only just begun.

Leader of the pack

Describe me in ordinary ways
You will never capture my meaning.

You over look me on your way
I range beyond your limited vision

Take for granted my softness
You'll never enter my fortress.

Try to measure your affection
You're rulers mean nothing to me.

I'm a singular hunter,
stalking through the night

I'm the shadow
that startles you

You can't see in the dark
but I can.

Love Everyday

You dance across the screen
that plays inside my head
while I sit and dream of you
curled up warm in my bed.

They say patience is a virtue,
I've heard it also means pain
I'd endure it all just to be with you
I trust my wait is not in vain.

For in your eyes I'll see the spark
of the beginning of my life,
You'll make me want to live forever
as your best friend and your wife.

I will love you with every breath
with every single smile
I will be the one you lean on
A safe place to rest awhile

Oh somewhere you exist!
I hope you dream of me too,
Until our time I'll send my love
Around this world for you

pulled apart

Every morning when I wake
I begin again to reenact the character
who I believe I am
on this mind blowing stage of life
we are all fools for believing
we are someone
when we are not.
we are a dream
and we are so serious
but our dreaming giant
just laughs at us all
scurrying about
believing in ourselves
in something real
when its all a joke
a dream
we walk around half asleep
dreaming of being awake
in a world that doesn't exist
my mind explodes inside my tiny head
with this idea of being fooled
what to do
with the power of living
life inside another dream?
or the weakness?
the binding truth
hands locked?
feet preplanned?
Sinking or rising?
Darkness or light?
Love or mockery?
I forget which way is right
and which is left.
Totally disorientated
I walk directly towards
the only force I'll ever know.

stop sign

These sounds
The faces
Everything new
nothing yet old.
But I sense a time
when I will look back
on this time
and remember
as I sit and dream up
the future,
I already remember
the past
that is,
my present
my past
my future.
I exist everywhere
in all time
in every way
Join me
in Love
we will all win.

recycle

I see your golden light
and all else is shadow
I will wait in peace
Knowing in time
your hand will
find mine.
Like gasoline
on a fire,
one word from you
I erupt into wildness
Bursting to life
I long to hear
your voice.
The sun rise connects
You and me,
the moon is ours too.
Life's florist
arranged us together
to display the beauty
of one another.
I will blossom fully
as brightly as I can
I will lure you
with the scent of sincerity
until you see nothing else.
I will become like the sun
rising in your world,
illuminating every space
in your mind
with the hope of love.

Odd sensation of being here before
Saw the ocean shinning when I walked out the door,
I am someone you don't recognize
but you know me very well,
so go ahead, tell your secrets
you know I'll never tell,
anyone about your wishing
or how you lived your life,
because we are all just waiting
Forgetting every day
that what we came here for
is Love, there's no one to obey
For love is all around you
It always will remain......

breathless again

Even in my dreams, you fall short.

I wake as furious as the EX-ploding Volcano
Erupting into molten lavvvva..........
Not seeing anything in my path
I blindly destroy everything
I burn with such an INTENSITY
I'll give history no choice
but to remember my name.
I demand immunity from idiots,
I command sounds to be silent!
With no warning I'll consume all
Swallowing entire worlds whole,
steadily studying the horizon.
Moving on, away from you
Behind me you are frozen
like a stone, fixed forever
in My cavernous Past
You are lost in parts of me
I have already forgotten.

Half awake, almost asleep

When I become aware of my nature
I am the unhearing unseeing Self
I command the wind and
Control the very Sun in the sky.

When I am within my Body
The temple of my Soul
Clearly I exist as Space
I am Everything at once.

Closing the senses down
I destroy my expectations,
without Mercy I sacrifice
all experiences to be with You.

In the Palm of my Hand
the world turns on its axle
spinning around and around
While I day dream about Living

the grey

Unfold me like the lotus flower.
one thousand pedals of self
to penetrate before I know who I am.
Hope fails to find me here
I beg the stars in the sky to shine
down on me, illuminating my eyes
with sparkling romance
replacing the sorrow that
reflects the blue hue of my soul.
Smile down upon me,
softly shower me with sensual kisses
from the infinite peace of Heaven.
I'm living everyday waiting
for you to reveal yourself to me.
Not in the transformation of fall,
and not in the sound of laughter,
but in two eyes,
and a voice, a touch,
a touch to compare all touches to.
Another night alone
unfolding at the pace intended
not controlled by desire,
at the mercy of the authority
who I bow down to
without ever knowing who's feet
I am washing.
I run clear through the forest
drink me I'm clean
I will quench your thirst
and I'll water your land.
Always unfolding
revealing my inheritance
one silvery
gorgeous
lotus pedal
at a time
I dedicate myself to the process
step aside and watch me
expanding into everything
until I am a part of the air you breathe.
I grow up, I Am,
always growing up.

everyday is monday morning

With what pen can I create contentment?
I am an unending scroll of parchment
Blank, without meaning.
I am waiting to become important
until I know the language
the letters and symbols of your world
I am nothing
Nothing but another surface
craving ownership of anything
I go unnoticed and unread.
Alone in a world of the written word
I am unwritten and empty.
In this emptiness
I walk for thousands of miles
around and around.
I leave no footprints
I make no sound
All over this blank canvas
I tear my life apart
and rearrange it again.
Demanding more
I learn from my wordless soul,
that being
has no definition.
I am free from the confines
of limiting words.
The language of Love
is learned when you forget
how to speak.
When you go blind,
You will see.
I may be wordless
But I am free.

Onward

Where will you drop your anchor
were the words that made me think
If I remain standing still now
this ship will surely sink

I see you in the distance
With love across your face
I know it could be easy
But I'm not your ordinary case.

I push and pull
and run around
Searching for my song
I'm lost until I'm found.

My body aches for closeness
while my mind hides away,
I don't know where I'm going,
but here, I cannot stay.

Make this easier on me
Let me live my life
I will be so much better
without the struggle and strife

Goodbye to harnesses and leashes
I go forth naked and free
I'll laugh and sing and love again
The whole world watching me.

phantom

an ordinary day it was
a heavy heart i had
another day it could have been
in some other world away.
i lay here soft and still
wondering what life will bring
knowing perfectly well
what it will not
i made the choice
i sing my song
ill cry my tears
and be moving on,
but hear me now
as i breathe for you
and i wait for something more
i know cold dark mornings
the chill lingers in me now
dissolving into sleep
ill forget you for awhile.

your voice

Time slips by me like the river flowing fast,
-I am left here speechless
wondering how any love could last?
Too precious, is this finite life for me to comprehend
I mustn't want, I shall not need-I'll have nothing to contend.
All I hope is that I may see
a shinning star within the blackest night
and that this day be full of love, my heart strong and bright.

morning state

With haste I hurry to capture this sense
I am moved by your ability to own my world.
Your majesty is liquid gold light, illuminating life.
You humble me in the instant of communion.

Over me you rise, filling me with certainty
solidifying in my bones, I glow with your wonder.

The infinite ocean reflects your power
I see the mountains stand taller
trying to reach up to meet you.

I forget all that I am
and all that I lack, when without word
you command my being to surrender
to the only authority.

In the never ending space of sky
You make yourself known;

The Risen Sun,
I am yours.

As you sleep beside me

In stillness I write a few simple lines,
hoping somehow to remember these times
when I lay without want,
and I woke without worry
the days when I had nowhere to hurry.
Beside me right now,
you are here breathing deeply,
the moon in the sky,
the crickets talk sweetly
of the many summer nights
we laughed and sang loudly
but now the warm sky has become cloudy,
with the crisp air fall does set in
no longer am I able to live life on the whim
I am being called to leave our perfect nest,
the clocks ticking rhythm sounds in my chest,
Please my beloved
do let your heart be strong
in knowing my return is soon,
perhaps in December's second full moon...
until then I am with you
in spirit I am yours,
so don't go shutting all your windows and doors,
because another will enter,
just as I go to leave,
it is glorious to see you
wear your heart on your sleeve.
I am kept and I am tame
My heart beats always
in accordance with your name,
Please not a tear
I ask you to shed
I'll follow you forever
I've listened to everything you've ever said,
and in your wisdom I go forth and explore,
I have faith in the outcome
I trust whatsoever is in store,
because you taught me the beauty
of being alive
another me, another life
I could never contrive.
Without your guiding light,
and the warmth of your soul
My Mother, I would be nothing
making you happy is my highest goal.
I will slip away tomorrow
as the day turns to night
but know that no other
will ever shine as bright.

My Beautiful Mother; I love you with all of me.

for the ones i love

So this is it and here I go
diving into something,
where I don't know
but I have this feeling
I'm headed for love,
the compass points true north
I'm guided from above.
I'll continue on my journey
without a doubt
with no fear
and let the winds of time
take hold of my ship and steer,
I am free as the ocean
I am open as the sky
All I have to do is smile
there's no point in wonderin why...
Why waste a precious moment
standing stuck in one place
when we are born to go out
and travel through space!
My friends I will say farewell
but don't worry or fret
my love is all around you
Let us meet at every sunset,
there we will hold each other
deep within our core
because you know truly,
it is you I simply adore.
I will await you each evening
in the twilight of sky
and as the moon rises steady
and the star light finds your eye,
know the same illumination
stokes the fire within us all.

purple splashes of faith

This time of fresh air brings new beats to my blood
as it courses through my body hot
like the river running strong,
I am alive as the fire
that burns everything away
I throw all doubts into the flame
all fears turned to ashes
my spine is proud, hollow and full of light
Come stand closer to me
look into my eyes and see the stars
of the universes within me
always unfolding,
find yourself here,
with me now.

sweetly scented air

it happened just like i imagined
with the ease of a flower blossoming
we became known to each other.
i had often dreamed of such a time
for someone like you to ignite my soul
when i would release all desire to control...
just like that, you walked into the picture
you were all around me,
the air filled with your smile
and all at once
i knew my wishing was worthwhile,
you may have forgotten me,
the second we parted ways,
but i will hold this butterfly in my heart
for the rest of my days,
i am perfectly happy
knowing you exist.

the calender keeps flipping
and im helpless to the change
i am no better off when the day is done
there is nothing left to rearrange,
i am unable to love
as deeply as i need
to save this world,
i am one
and i am none
i sit alone with all the voices in my head
so please someone hold me
and lay me softly in my bed
i am this feeling
of the earth shifting beneath me
of the change blowing through the trees,
but its blowing
and im going
but not without peace.
ive left before
and i have returned,
ive longed for leaving ever since.
ive felt so much
i don't want too much more
please,
look me in the eye and tell me whats in store,
because my heart trembles
with the shortening of days
I prefer to live in a haze,
yet i know leaving is necessary
so why the sudden shortness of breath?
one contradiction i am
its not easy to be me,
but i am sure its not all that easy
being you.

give me the strength to climb this mountain
to endure the harsh winds
to make it through the cold.
let me feel your fire everywhere i go
like ive felt it before
this is not new to me,
so why should i fall
i should sit back and laugh at it all,

because this is life as its living
and i am me as i am
so why is it that i just cannot understand?
this life is about feeling so deeply is hurts
what else would i hope for?
what more could i want?

but we always want something,
we always need more
and its never enough
we can never endure
the truth of the matter
we're not here for long.

heavy clouds

Floating on an island
in the ocean somewhere
somewhere cold and somewhere foggy
Is it the wine or the boredom
that makes me so groggy?
I feel too old to be this young
When was it that I was stung?
I am swelling
I am burning
with a poison so sweet
this breath runs through my veins
and I shout in the street
this experience is too short
for all the love I want to share
just one life time doesn't seem fair
but I am stuck on an island
with heavy dark clouds hanging low
I am planting the seeds
and then watching them grow.
The time of my life is passing me by
I sit alone in my room and quietly cry
for the ending of all
that this life means to me
I find solace in the stars
as I meditate by the sea
This island of mine is lonely and old
Won't you light a fire
before my heart becomes too cold?
I don't want to fade into the mist
but its where we are all going anyways
so let me feel free and knowingly exist.

Jerk

The container I've been held in
has broken wide open
I am free of the habitual sin.
All this time I thought I was weaker than you,
but now I see this as totally untrue
I've felt more deeply than you ever could
I dropped you out of my heart
and it felt really good.
You were never enough
to sustain my thirst,
You never understood putting me first
this is why I already forget your name
our time was just some silly old game
and it is you who has lost
and I who have won
you're shrowed in darkness
while I bask in the sun,
No more wasted thoughts
No more tears to cry,
many more hearts to break before I die
so I am off to the races
and I've made my bets
focused on living
I've got no regrets.

The net will not hold,
but you won't fall down.
The space in between is love

The thought was once nice,
but now
not true

so what will you do

its your choice
make a move
do something amazing

Say it
SCREAM IT
Live it
Love it
Own it

I remember being down so low
I thought the winter would'be all I'd ever know,
Then the cold air turned sweet
Beautiful life bursting from the trees
Handsome laughing faces I did meet.
Full of joy I lay to rest
Knowing this day has been truly blessed,
I'll rise tomorrow if it's in my cards
I love it all
I love you all

Over Pass

Ground me to the Earth
Fill my lungs with song
Show me the light around these dark clouds
that hover over my bed.

I must be missing something
I cannot be seeing clearly,
the wild flower
in the meadow feels alone,

The deeper in the forest we go,
Fewer explores there will be.
For the ones who make the trek
what a glorious sight awaiting.

A shift in perspective
is the reunion between
beauty and quest.
Keep the fire going,
burn away the past.

There Here

Peace in the morning
isn't felt in my body
Too much filling
Still not enough emptying

silly boys

The hours swiftly passing by
Like wind blowing from the sky
I am waiting for love in all the right places
So why do I see blank stares on all your faces?
It can be lonely when every night is spent alone
It seems so quiet here with no one on the telephone,
Another day, another night, another glass of wine
Why don't I believe I'll ever find someone to call mine?
Is it me? Is it you? Is it this place in which I live?
How many broken hearts do I really have to give?
I retreat back to silence as I have done before,
I thought you'd like my laughing, but you continue to ignore
The light that shines from my eyes when I speak.
Now that I think about it, a future with you would really look bleak
because I am on the most wonderful quest
one where I'll only be matched with the best
and you are only a filler of space
A million others I could find to replace
YOU!

throw it away

You whisper to me, in the wind I hear your call,
To stand up free and run from it all...
The right way, the traditional way
I will never obey
I am meant to be free against the setting sun
On a ship with the ocean I'll be having so much fun,
Writing wonderful stories at the beach
The sacred Art of Yoga I can teach!
So why not take a chance
on something great,
Take control of myself
and create my own fate
For it is I, I am living for
and not anyone else,
Every option is mine, and I'd like to explore
All that I am, and could be,
I know this life is not really that long
so I must not waste time
Trying to learn the words of some song
When the music's inside me,
the rhythms pulse in my veins
Speak only truth,
Trust Love, the light sustains.

something, somewhere

It's hard to say
which way I'll go
where the wind will blow,
What I know is true
I'll be waiting for you
wherever our paths should meet,
until that moment reveals itself
I'll crawl down every street
to find myself there,
the one I dream of
A love so strange
so alive
so strong
I know that I belong
to the tradition of Truth
and courageous souls
who settle for nothing less.
Every day I go deeper
into the vortex
where the world cannot enter.
I grow beyond sight,
I am sound without might
I exist in the present
without ever knowing why.
I love everything ferociously
with passion unkempt I run
towards all the stars in the sky

this is great

I walk to the gate, let myself in.
I have done this a million times,
I know the way, I know the path.
I sit in the same seat
Read the same magazine,
eat the same food.
I imagine it all the same way.
I take away everything from you,
just to play the part
of the person who I thought
I was playing in this production.
The window was smashed,
the light flooded in
illuminating the vision
with something glowing
A truth that glows bright.
I needed you to hurt me,
I expected the pain
as I walk forward,
I never regret
because I've only gained,
the inward sight
the map to the gold
is in my hands.
I am leading this treasure hunt,
The ship's wheel in my hands,
Full of courage,
the water I sail upon is holy
The eyes I look through are mine.
The breath is endless,
My love is explosive
I am blown into pieces
scattered far and wide
I am everywhere.
I am light.
I am

too much?

What is this sensation,
Indulgence.
In thought, in volume, in hope.
The indulgence pushes from the inside out
Until I feel the bursting of skin.
A jagged tear along my stomach.
Unrequited dreams spill from me,
a steady flow of denial,
of misused time,
wronged love.
Pouring out of my side.
I sit watching,
Exposed, Deflating, Emptying.
I let go all pardons,
I will not be saved by you.
I have never needed the satin.
Lay me down in thorns,
I will not shed a tear.
Not indulging.
Not possible,
I am a velvet rabbit
I am luxury.
I am the most expensive ring,
You can't even afford me.
Keep walking,
keep hoping,
keep laughing.
We are all bought sometime.

Another degree of cool

Alone again
Well not entirely,
my cats are here.
There is movement upstairs.
Birds are flying outside my window.
Life is all around me,
but I am alone
with my books,
my pen,
to put together a conversation.
Between myself, and, and...myself
Shame to not be sharing laughter,
to be warmed by another.
To keep, and be kept.
I've got you Leonard Cohen.
The liquor store down the street.
An early morning, and a full day to meet.
Maybe tomorrow.
Blessed be today.
My ribs ache for closeness,
my eyes search for yours in all others.
Just give me a sign
Let me know my belief is not careless
Show me my heart beating
Show me the fire burning,
the wind blowing
and the water flowing.
Come to me
Love,
come to me soon my love,
I am cold here, alone in my warm bed.
When the paint brush
paints us finally together,
I will be fully present,
Ready,
In effortlessness we will meet,
a place between giving, and receiving,
between stillness and motion.
There I await you.

rain all day

The repetitious nature of observation
is reflected in the mirror as continuous creation,
where moment to moment you see something new.
You feel something new, You are someone new.
You remember a sensation of peace,
so profound, everything becomes a celebration.
Laughter is spontaneous and often,
Compassion is a way of being,
and Surrender means to welcome
the blessed strength of the earth beneath our feet.
The fluidity between Self and Seen
becomes an artery vein pumping life
through the body.
The breath is the ocean of existence
we bathe in at dawn
Worshipping the light of the Sun,
the Moon, and the Stars
like a Forest dwelling creature of magic
I undulate with the ripples of Being.
I am a bottomless well of Power.
Lunar rotations reveal the source of all,
each cycle, each evolution.
Again, again, again, and again.
Love oozing out of the flower petals
Kindness in the air.
The clock is an illusion

public places

A slippery glass
a smash that screams
the hand held tight
what once was real
all that's left
is a broken deal.
The lessons learned
the pain expressed
now its over
and I lay to rest,
alone in a world
of slippery people,
fall away from me
burn down your steeple
I walk over the mess
that is this place
I set sail today
Truth, and nothing less
on the open sea.

No alarms to turn off...

Light shines through the window,
over the bed in which I sleep.
I am safe and warm,
my dreams are now
the pillow's to keep.

I awaken to a new day

Slowly, the layers of rest
are unveiled, revealing life.
Blossoming from an earth
where my spirit roams
through the night,
I witness birth.

sliding glass doors

The clothes are dancing on the line,
the wind airs them out
My thoughts escape me
before I could lock them up,
So much better floating on
then buried down deep
in my heart, where for
lifetimes they could stay.
The mouth of creation
deeply sighs......................
blowing away my doubts,
with peace and love
I watch the wind blow
You are blown away with it.

Effortlessly ...
the full moon in unison with the sea
abides to the universal dance
shortening the distance
between you and me,
somewhere you exist
in the realm of dreams.
my foot steps echo
down the endless corridor
trying to find the opening
pulling fragments of self
back and forth
from all parts of the galaxy
I am spread across.
I see the clouds floating by
Local to no place in particular
and to no one definitely.
I Feel sure I will find you
Who ever,
Where ever,
You may be.
Trusting in the honesty
of the sun rise,
and resting in the peace
of the sun set.

See yourself to the door

Not another minute, your time is up.

All those wasted days of longing,

and the twisted ways of doubt.

I struggled to be free,

I was lost so long at sea

My emotions blown away

into the frenzy of night

far past the horizon is another day

that I believe will bring love.

These eyes are shinning brighter

with a steady focus on breath,

I will not open my eyes

for you again.

You failed to see the light

and tried to deny it.

I am solid

like the statue

made of stone

I am not indestructible

but too much for you to hold.

Leave me to be with the world

all the people looking in

as I look back with wonder.

I exist somewhere else now

Your weak spell I'm no longer under,

you are not welcome here

Revel at some other,

but none will ever

come close

to me.

Irregular heart beat
deep within my chest
I sip on my glass of wine
only hoping for the best
I know this life is moving fast.
I'm the girl with the smile on
Not wanting to come in last,
to be left alone.
By choice I am secluded
far away from here,
I am with the mountains,
Nature takes away my fear
of being anything
other than the vessel I am.
Between the mountains
underneath the sky
laughter and silence
are my comrades.
My body
the machine.
My heart
the jewel.
My spirit
the rain

I guess not

How can I sit with bated breath
waiting for you're Hello
when it should be you to wait
with anguish, stomach tight
hoping I might look you're way.
Do I even have a reason
to want attention from you?
Why should the rose
be anything else
to attract the bee?
The sun does not need
our love to shine
The light is indifferent
to our petty and self-limiting ways.
Mimic nature and I need no call
from any poor chap
who fails to recognize
the splendor of my scent.
Breathing returns to normal,
the sound of the ocean
steady in my throat
my three eyes focused
on the glimmering light
around the edges of everything
The moment is revealing
the source of you
which is the source of me

This very second life is the river flowing away from you.

The rains are cold tonight

What is this circus ride I am on,
up and down
so high, and then so low
If I wasn't so terrified of falling off
I would look around
and sometimes
the butterflies in my stomach
bring elation and immense joy
but when I am falling down,
on the whim of another,
I lose all my senses,
I am tumbling towards the bottom
with an intensity
that is bottomless
Is there a middle, a platform I can rest,
or will this be forever
the somersaulting,
the rushing of air around my face
being alone
Did I choose this ride?
Or did someone push me on it
Do I have a choice?
or am I choice less,
powerless?
because I am honest enough
to know I am not fearless
alas, I will wait for the upswing
to toss me into euphoria
an opium high
a breaking of boundaries
a deep connection to change
Changing everyday
every moment.
High and low

s

When the heart yearns and burns
for the one who fit so well,
the mind struggles to intervene;
the voice within begins to yell...
time has ruled against us,
let the past go.

this

All I have to be certain about
are the words I lay to rest
on this page and in the world
I am unaware of the soul
that beats my chest
I just know that something is guiding me
as I turn and run to you in the woods
I no longer know what happiness means
because being near you feels best
so what am I to want
when all I want is to love you
you are my everything
my whole world
for how long can I leave for
when I depend on you so much
I question what other love
could possibly offer me more
I walk for hours alone in my head
and almost certainly I find peace
the endless chatter
runs its course
the stillness of the pond
why am I so consumed
with what is waiting beyond
I do not wish for what is waiting
I am happy
I am happy
I am alive

the ground was solid

You know, those funny little moments,
when everything becomes clear
and the ground you've been walking on
has been telling you all along
only the living of life shall reveal,
the immaculate beauty
the incredible love
which has fueled your every step.
Life is leaving you this very second
Please, there is no time to delay
Look around and be witness
to the glory of the pulse in your chest
and when the day finally comes
with peace you will march
to the infinite palace of rest
every single second is a gift.

the lady who saw the future...

the fortune teller did read my cards
and told me loves nowhere in sight,
i felt my heart break there and then,
i held those tears back with all my might.
how can i live such a life,
with no hope of a man?
during difficult times of pain,
who will be the one to understand?
since i am a lonely stranger now,
i guess you all better be walking on by
i've got nothing to give you
so don't even try...
the fortune teller told me,
i've got too much to do
a diamond ring on this finger,
the white dress,
dreams that ain't coming true..
the fortune teller told me,
i am on a mission of peace...
one where i am often alone,
and i won't get much release.
i guess i've been warned,
i guess i've been told,
that my beautiful spirit
won't never be sold.

Just now

Many years. One feeling. Thousands of butterflies. Two smiles. Four eyes intently focused. Hours of fun. Minutes of breathlessness. Eternities of Love. Oceans of Truth. Millions of rose petals. A pink cascading waterfall of rose petals falling from the sky filling the air with the scent of wild rose and morning rain. The essence of open fields rustles through my shiny brown hair in the middle of a summer's night.

a thought

I am the honoured guest
to the greatest light show ever.
The irony is the illusion,
and the illusion
is actually the light.
Most live in the irony
never recognizing the truth,
of what is all around them.
The same light shines through
and you get distracted by
the many shapes and faces
it occupies.

it is it

Layers and layers
upon layers and layers
of deep emotion
I Am.

The curtainless window
is laughing
at the inaction of this bedroom
that I Am.

A night of laughter
no stars, but still sky
I am glad
to be alive.

Book of Love

There was a book once written,
it was called The Book of Love.
She wrote the words in tenderness
every night,
by candle light
she poured out her love for him...
onto the pages of creation
words sprawled everywhere,
waiting for worlds to begin.
If he ever read them
and if they ever touched his soul,
This lovely young poet girl
will surely never know.
He forgot his book so quickly
when he packed his things to leave,
He forgot her gift of love on the floor
He crushed her heart on her sleeve.
Now the book sits waiting,
to be read again someday.
But this girl won't be reading
or restating any of her feelings,
she won't be writing him ever again,
her broken heart
has already stopped bleeding.
But when she writes another book,
of love or joy or peace
She will keep it close beside her
unwilling to release,
the inner workings of her mind,
her heart, body, and soul.

A.C

What is this constant feeling,
that occupies my mind
every single moment of my day
I am always able to find,
a thought, a dream, a memory
to travel through a while
I get lost in those spaces of history
I wander roads for miles,
That one day I will walk beside you,
and feel you in my breath,
Is the only reason I sit so still
and wait for this to pass,
the love we share is bottomless,
we'll never reach the top,
one thousand reasons for total bliss
My heart beating for you will never stop.

Dark and Light

I am the wooden boat,
the waters rock me steady.
When the waves hit
I let go of my oars
Universe I'm ready,
which ever space you toss me to
I will laugh in the wind
and I will get through,
the darkest of storms.
The fierce cold
cannot put the fire out in me
I am rolling and flying
moving in unison with the sea.
I have no doubt, I will survive
and see the quiet dawn breaking
over the infinite blue ocean,
I am lost in transformation;
what was raging
is now still.
What was once turbulent movement,
is now velvet translucence beneath me.
Furry and faith,
Confusion and truth,

all part of the movements of the ocean,
all part of the movements of soul.

The darkness and the light
of this journey
teach me to close my eyes
and journey into the space behind my face
where galaxy upon galaxy exists.
The wooden vessel we sail inside
will surely never sink.
Go beyond the quiet harbors in your mind,
Open sails full of wind
Forward,
Careening into peace.

The unfinished gift

The chest sits waiting
for the carpenters hands,
to finish the fine details
But time goes on
life steps in
and on the shelf
the empty chest lands.

your eyes are wild

My heart beating in my chest
Not even thinking of you when I got dressed
I make my moves, and I live my life.
Meeting you was by total surprise,
You noticed me, and then I notice you,
I instantly knew what it felt to be true
because by no conscious thought
did I happen to find
the one perfect person
who I could proudly call mine.
The moments seem like yesterday
that we danced through the night,
so far away from here
under the wild African star light,
we are miles apart now
and I will have to wait,
for that perfect sometime,
and that special someplace
when we are together again
with love in my heart
and peace on your face
our souls become one
the time in between us was nothing
but flower scented space.
Keep me in your thoughts
and I will keep you in mine
Sooner than later this will all be a dream
as we sit on the beach
from our cups we drink wine
and remember our first meeting
when we sealed our hearts
and we promised each other
that when we dance,
it will be
forever.

Delivered

The moon illuminating the early morning urges me to be brave,
I walk alone in total faith
waiting to be saved.
I have carried the weight of confusion too long,
My body now free from chains
my heart beats steady,
I am finally ready
to deliver myself from fear.
Released back into the wild where I belong
my sight restored, my mind clear
as the night sky reflected in the quiet pond,
The music of the night softly singing its longing song
I have been born today and have died,
I gave birth to the person I will be
I read beautifully and move gracefully
Dancing through this world I'll live free.

Ah ha!

And just like that, a quiet morning of certainty opens the gateway to joy.

I am a giant jigsaw puzzle,
my pieces scattered and far.
But wait, whats this I feel?
in the center of my chest
the piece has been laid,
all of a sudden
the larger picture can be seen.
I am not condemned to brokenness
I am not forever lost
it just took some time to find my place
all along, in the center of my heart.

To those who feel disconnected,
to those who've lost all hope,
from one complicated puzzle to another,
the pieces will fit together,
the images will become clear.
Trust the hand that is working
find peace in all your parts.

where are you

How can I slip in and out of awareness while perfectly aware of my levels of awareness?
and why should a young woman like myself sit alone, incapable of reaching out to anyone?
I am angry and I am cold.

I am an old house on the side of a mountain. The sun always sets here. The shadows linger all day long as I hold firm to the ground below me. My fragile windows rattle in the wind, my insides are always uncomfortably cool. The forest surrounds me with quiet, an impenetrable fortress of silence. The sky is gray and it looks like rain. I am the lonely house in the middle of nowhere waiting for the forest fire to consume me. To take away all the years of solitude, of frustrating days of longing, and nights of restless sleep.

I am waiting for the sun to rise, until it does, I am the shadow of the unending setting of the sun.

tonight i draw within again

Softly, my eyes close over the day.
Another step taken,
One more page in this book of evolution.
I will not rationalize
or explain my emotions.

My lows are the very depths of undefined
regions of the black black ocean.
In this way my heart can be seen as undeniably
capable of confusion, and staggering clarity.
So deep into this earth lies the beginning, and the end.

My highs, are the outer reaches of far off galaxies,
Light years away, erupting with creation and destruction
Colors not of this planet I am comprised.
Here I am the eternal vibration,
I am wonder
I am heaven.

When I seek solitude
Do not try to reach me.
I am gone away,
I have drawn within.
Trance like, I move through space and time.
Existing.
Evolving into something, and I am not sure what.

The traditions of the sun
The traditions of the moon,
To rise and fall
To shine their light for All,
is to me, what life is meant for.

But what if my light fades out,
what if I explode and burn everyone I meant to love?
What if my fear takes over and I live in a cave in darkness,
dwelling on all of my indecisions.

Profanity! Profanity! Let me scream from the top of my lungs
My disdain for stupid fake smiles,
fake friends.
fake inner peace.
fake love.
fake forgiveness.
fake conversation.
fake emotions.

I'll plant the seeds of Truth inside my soul
deep within my body.
I will water myself with my breath
until the foliage of my potential is a lush rain forest
teaming with life, overtaking my physical form.
I will be alluring as the vampire
and hold within myself the cure the world so desperately needs.

the flowers did fall

The flowers falling in the middle of night,
woke me gently from my sleep.
I walked down slowly still adjusting to the light
and sure enough the flowers lay.
Colors strewn across my sight,
water soaking up the floor
The sun still sleeping I pick the flowers up,
arranging them in the vase, not quite the same as before.
Then I hear the silence
that cascades around my head,
I dreamily sit and listen
to the rain that ceased to fall.
the wind is blowing slowly now
with no where else to be,
I imagine I am like the wind
Unleashed and wonderfully free.
I have no questions needing answers here
There are no magicians I am urged to seek.
We are the magic or the magician,
Guess which I am?
Our time together is getting short
The sky must lighten soon.
I will gather the stars of the night in my arms
And sing them softly to sleep.
The journey beginning again and again,
the Truth is love, and it is ours to keep.

Know your role in eternity. Infinite joy, infinite peace, infinite love.

love somewhere, sometime.

whatever it is i wish to say so eloquently, so deeply passionate that your skin blushes...
seems to already have been said. when i close my eyes i see a mouth with perfect lips searching for mine in the darkness, an embrace i remember anywhere, through lifetimes the love has been true... still i am waiting for our reunion, i cling to fragments of self i have collected and desperately try to stitch them together to make a whole person, someone with likes and dislikes, hopes and dreams. but i am none of those things, i am a creature of the star dust from the beginning and the end. existing. not watching the clock ticking on the wall with nervous anticipation of what will be. just watching. i watch the clouds streaming through the blues and greys of the changing skies, the birds floating on the invisible winds, and the currents pulsing under the surface of the blue blood of the ocean. i have nothing new to add to this life, not which has already been said or done. i realize the only originality ill ever know will be the love i risk exposing. the boldness of my love will deliver me from the confines of this meager existence of human being. i sit in the seat of 1000 petals of lotus flower, then, now, and always. i feel the distance shortening between us. the great return, i am ready.

stay warm

the time is now
i must finally embrace the human experience
as this person that i am.
nobody else
i see the radiance of loving
the only person who ever really mattered.
and all along the truth was woven into the fabric
<>
is the beauty,
loving yourself is the offering
sacrificing ego is the challenge
being unafraid is your birth right.
listening to the wind,
and watching the birds fly.
the human experience is just that. keeping it simple, listening to the breath.

Living in a Glass dome

Something solid,
something indestructible.
Something sound.
I will employ my mind.
I will break the thick, seemingly impenetrable glass dome that surrounds.
The consequences I will deal with,
Sickened by stagnation, drowning in mediocrity,
Lungs depressing.
The break of dawn is just an illusion.
Where are the real stars?
Where is the laughter.
Avoiding my life, or avoided by life?
who is chasing who.
Things keep looking the same,
every turn I take,
every face I see.
keep looking beyond the glass veil
Break the veil apart
burn it to the ground.
There is a brook babbling love stories
beyond the junction of surrender and destruction,
drink the water of the living
breath the air of the free.
Nothing else will quench your thirst,
satisfy for soul,
or bring peace to your mind.
Find the crack in the glass,
and smash it wide open.
Occupy more space than an ocean
Cast your spells.
Come on Warrior
Create some action.

Sleep in a small town

It is not because my surroundings are unimpressive
It's more because the people are.
I rather read and cook and sleep,
Then be out lying to myself about who I am.
I sleep all night and wake at dawn
Never really sure if I am alive
Or merely a floating stick making its way down the river.
Directed by a current too big to comprehend.
But I know this isn't true.
The sun rising stirs such hope in my chest
that I keep trudging through this
I keep a hold of my ideas of the future
and the possibility that true love does exist
all this time I try not to believe it,
perhaps protecting myself.
The search of love is my quest.
One I committed to, body and mind.
This searching unrest I feel through my bones
Is confirmation of what I am looking for.
I will make my way through this forest of doubts
I will be true to the being that is light and love.

creator

I reckon this life is one big canvas,
one big blank canvas.
The paint we choose,
the pictures we make.

No erasing paint off the canvas of your life,
we are the artist, so we must blend
into the shapes we have given life to
splashing images from beginning to end.

Painting scenes each day of your life,
Some in black, grey, and blues
Then there are pinks, reds,
and other passionate hues.

I suggest we remember our position
in front of the canvas we stand
creating our stories
with paint brushes in hand

The living breathing piece of Art
that comes to life,
with a real live beating heart.
Only to bold living shall I commit to being a wife.

This is the journey,
We live it as we see it
One color burst at a time
Or maybe all colors bursting at all times

You are the artist
You have the paint by your side
life is within you before it is around you
Paint yourself with love.

Be the glorious sunset
Be the majestic sunrise.
Be the infinite blue ocean.
Be the jet black ravens soaring through the sky.

The dance of the butterfly

I am not this body

I am not this mind.

I am infinite space,

I am one soul through time.

I look deep into the eyes,

I see the fire within

I see the patterns of the skies

I am galaxies within galaxies

My soul lives on when this body dies

I am not this body,

I am not this mind.

Transformation is my medium

Radical Love is what I seek to find

Changing the world

Changing the mind.

We are not these bodies

We are not these minds.

Anju

I breath in deeply,
each cell inflamed with love.
You have been a guiding light,
You are peaceful as a dove.

You share your gift so freely,
You teach us how to be
I am blessed to have a teacher
To help me clearly see.

You prepare us for the journey
You give us the strength to try
To be the peaceful warriors
To always reach for the sky.

Thank you for your wisdom,
thank you for your time,
You have given me the gift
To let my spirit shine.

I love you Mother

Gripped by darkness I am made immobile
I stare out the window at the naked tree branches
I am thoughtless,
Hopeless.

The slippery fingers of nothingness
dig dip into my skin
I am freezing cold on contact
I am numb to life within.

The waves crash all around me
I am pulled beneath the blue
I will not struggle or put up a fight
The beauty of life lost from my view.

But then I feel your laughter
and now I feel your touch
you pull me through the cold dark night,
My mother, I love you so very much.

Ode to Joy, Ode to Love, Ode to Me

This day has come together
To represent the love
that is flowing from my fingers
my spirit soars high above

I woke this morning in sunshine
I closed my eyes in bliss
to think my universal lover
will honor me with this kiss.

A feeling over takes me,
and I am no longer lost at sea...
I am spirit bundled up in a body,
I am the wind blowing through the tree...

I howl with delight for the beauty
as I see myself in the light,
I dissolve into being and awaken
I am beyond the confines of ordinary sight.

Behold the Goddess that I am
Perhaps then you will understand,
That life is meant for true loving
and I will gladly hold on to your hand.

I am the only love of my life,
and no expectations
will ever cause me any pain, any struggle or strife.
Nobody could interrupt the rhythm of my mediation's

I will not be afraid of conclusion,
I will write my own chapters on knowing
so when I stumble through the halls of confusion
I will not panic, I'll just keep on flowing.

For I am the body and the temple,
To house the glory of Being,
and whatever joys or sorrows
I will know the truth of what I am seeing

A magnificent display of lights,
undulating in the mind,
what we attach to this energy
will surely reflect how we spend your time

But I will see only laughter,
and I will be full of grace.
Living as Emily is fleeting
I wish only to wear a smile on my face

Please, lets get this right, right now!
You are an infinite part of creation,
I know you know this, somehow...
Take pride in the human nature


The magnitude of the universe
resides inside your chest
look deep into the sky with wonder
Your star shining brighter than the rest.

Hold the splendor of this second,
harness the power of now.
Love every bit of the journey,
There is no time left to wonder how.

stranger in the mirror

off and on sort of weather today
off and on sort of life id say.
maybe i can get back on track,
forgetting anything that i may lack.

so many inspirations today,
so many reasons why,
its so strange that as i look around
i can only think to cry.


i wonder where this day has come from,
i wonder where it will go..
i've been searching high and low,
for feelings of realness to grow.

i see you all so busy
with fear upon your face,
did you ever think to stop and breath,
you know, this life is not a race...

i will hold on to this day
so soon the night sets in,
and with it arrives the saddest of goodbyes,
because here i cannot stay

our eyes have betrayed us...

let this be a statement of truth, a tribute to love, and a vision of peace..
sweet mother earth is crying and it is past our time to leave.
but we stay and we kill-destroying waters, starting fires, raping forests, just to pay our bills.
im sad to say im part of it..
im hurt to see her cry, my beautiful mother earth, how can i sit here and watch you die?
inform me how to save you...
i'll give my all to this fight, and will stand steady through this long, dark night...
its the very way we live our lives that frightens me the most,
we walk around with our eyes closed shut,
not once loving the holiest ghost...
i pray for our awakening...i eagerly await
that someday soon the world will sing,
lets hope we're not too late.