the grey

Unfold me like the lotus flower.
one thousand pedals of self
to penetrate before I know who I am.
Hope fails to find me here
I beg the stars in the sky to shine
down on me, illuminating my eyes
with sparkling romance
replacing the sorrow that
reflects the blue hue of my soul.
Smile down upon me,
softly shower me with sensual kisses
from the infinite peace of Heaven.
I'm living everyday waiting
for you to reveal yourself to me.
Not in the transformation of fall,
and not in the sound of laughter,
but in two eyes,
and a voice, a touch,
a touch to compare all touches to.
Another night alone
unfolding at the pace intended
not controlled by desire,
at the mercy of the authority
who I bow down to
without ever knowing who's feet
I am washing.
I run clear through the forest
drink me I'm clean
I will quench your thirst
and I'll water your land.
Always unfolding
revealing my inheritance
one silvery
gorgeous
lotus pedal
at a time
I dedicate myself to the process
step aside and watch me
expanding into everything
until I am a part of the air you breathe.
I grow up, I Am,
always growing up.