the calender keeps flipping
and im helpless to the change
i am no better off when the day is done
there is nothing left to rearrange,
i am unable to love
as deeply as i need
to save this world,
i am one
and i am none
i sit alone with all the voices in my head
so please someone hold me
and lay me softly in my bed
i am this feeling
of the earth shifting beneath me
of the change blowing through the trees,
but its blowing
and im going
but not without peace.
ive left before
and i have returned,
ive longed for leaving ever since.
ive felt so much
i don't want too much more
please,
look me in the eye and tell me whats in store,
because my heart trembles
with the shortening of days
I prefer to live in a haze,
yet i know leaving is necessary
so why the sudden shortness of breath?
one contradiction i am
its not easy to be me,
but i am sure its not all that easy
being you.

give me the strength to climb this mountain
to endure the harsh winds
to make it through the cold.
let me feel your fire everywhere i go
like ive felt it before
this is not new to me,
so why should i fall
i should sit back and laugh at it all,

because this is life as its living
and i am me as i am
so why is it that i just cannot understand?
this life is about feeling so deeply is hurts
what else would i hope for?
what more could i want?

but we always want something,
we always need more
and its never enough
we can never endure
the truth of the matter
we're not here for long.